A challenge...

I would like to challenge you all.
I am sure most of you are aware of what is going on in our world, and I would hope you are horrified by it. Our country, our world, needs to change. You may be thinking, "what can I do to change to world?" There is a long list, but it all starts with something so simple, yet something so few take time out of their day to do. Prayer.
Yes, it probably sounds "Sunday School." But it's so incredibly important.
So, my challenge; set an alarm or calendar event on your phone, every day for the next week. I think I'll set mine for 6:00pm, because I know I won't be working during that time. Everyday, when your phone goes off, stop what you are doing and pray. Pray for anything and everything, but specifically our Country, the terrorist attacks, and wisdom for us as a nation as we are coming upon the time when we choose our next leader. Whether you are driving, doing school, about to go to bed, playing on Facebook or eating, I beg you to join me speaking to our savior and asking him for help and guidance.
Pass this along, if you feel lead. Together, let us become a nation on our knees.
"If my people, who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land." ( 2 Chronicles 7:14) 
~KayK 

My Dearest Mama.

My dearest Mama,
Thank you. Thank you for all you do, for who you are.
Thank you for taking care of me.
Thank you for making an unmeasurable number of diners/lunch's in my lifetime.
Thank you for decorating the house every year for Christmas (and letting me help:)
Thank you for all the work you do to host our family Christmas party's over the years.
Thank you for choosing to homeschool us kids, giving us so many opportunity.
Thank you for hauling me around to my barn jobs when I was 13/14, and thank you for not thinking me out of my mind trying to get a "Job" that young.
Thank you for always being there for me to bounce some crazy idea off off.
Thank you for listening to me talk endlessly about horses.
Thank you for sticking with me through the phase in my life where I never shut up.
Thank you for constantly setting an example of a Godly wife and mother.
Thank you for letting me go to camp with Dad when I was 6, even though you were not happy about letting me go that young.
Thank you for supporting me in my camper years, my TE years, and my CILT year.
Thank you for helping me through Drivers Ed. and not panicking when your 15 year old daughter got behind the wheel for the first time.
Thank you for watching all of heartland with me:)
Thank you for giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you for putting up with me through these teenage years.
Thank you for watching cheesy Christmas Hallmark movies with me:)
I love you,
~KayK

"Life update."

Life has been a bit crazy, I never knew that being 16 meant I would have so many decisions to make, and for those of you who don't know me, I do not make decisions well. At all.
I became stressed, real stressed. Mostly about school, and work, and no social life, and I didn't have anytime for anything I really wanted to do.
I kept saying, "I don't want to sell my soul to school" (referring to College.) I kept fighting this small inner voice telling me to slow down.
I can't. I'd tell myself. I have to graduate this year. I have to make the goal that I set. 
I prayed about it, but even when I thought about waiting a year to graduate, it still killed me. I have to graduate this year. Was all that went through my head for most of October.
I'm not sure when I finally "gave in", when I realized that I was "Selling my soul to school" even just in high school. Could I graduate this year? Yes. But that would be with a lot of stress, and I honestly don't want to start college next year. (stay tuned for what I decide to do with that...)
So, as I assume you all know by now, I've decided not to graduate this year, at least officially. I'm going to take time to do things like write, and scrapbook, do school, hopefully get a job, and almost most importantly continue my work with horses. For now, I am taking things one step at a time and following God as best I can and trust him with my future.
So, there you have it. A small update on the crazy world of Kaylee. Feel free to message or E-mail me if you want to catch up more! (Ps.shoutout to My sister and friends for letting me rant and giving me advice and helping me make this semi-big decision, yall are the best:)
"Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lords.
He is like a tree planted by water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
for it does not cease to bear fruit." (Jeremiah 17:7-8)

I need Jesus.

It's been a while...
It feels as if I got back from camp and was immediately thrown back  into life, schedules, stress, deadlines, requirements...
But here I am! alive and well and ready to blog!

I learned a thing or two at camp this summer.. (Or three, or four..) but one thing has really stuck with me: I.Need.Jesus.
I'd been running around all summer, trying to do everything, trying to meet peoples expectations and requirements. I had a lot to do, anything from learning how to be a staff member, to working with horses, to doing dishes, I was constantly busy and at times in over my head.
During a good amount of these times, I kept thinking "I need this done in order for me to get this done" or "If only I could have this person here with me to help" or "If I could just have a hug from this person..." All of these thoughts that had to do with earthly things and people.

One night, I was walking all the way across camp back to my cabin, it was dark and peaceful. Few people were out and about. I was praying, and all of a sudden it hit me; I don't need this person to make my life easier, I don't need to get this done, I need Jesus. 
I'd been so depending on other people and things for my happiness and strength, I'd forgotten where my true strength lies, and that ended in a good deal of stress for me for a little while until I finally realized that I couldn't do it, not by myself, not with other people, but with Jesus. Only with Jesus.

No matter where I am in life, no matter how much stress I'm under, no matter who is with me, no matter who leaves me, just give me Jesus.

"In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
Give me Jesus

 

Give me Jesus, give me Jesus
You can have all this world
But give me Jesus

 

And when I am alone
Oh and when I am alone
And when I am alone
Give me Jesus

 

Give me Jesus, give me Jesus
You can have all this world
But give me Jesus

 

And when I come to die
Oh and when I come to die
And when I come to die
Give me Jesus

 

Give me Jesus, give me Jesus
You can have all this world
You can have all this world
You can have all this world
But give me Jesus" 

~KayK

How wonderful you are...

How majestic are your works my God,

I can not contain my love for you!

My sould is weary, my heart is torn. I don't know where to go.

Yet secretly my heart knows where it lies,

It lies with you, Oh my Lord.

How can my heart contain its joy?

How can my heart move on to another?

I love thee Oh Lord, I long to sing your every praise.

My God, my God how wonderful you are to love a sinner such as I.
~KayK

I.Don't.Know.

I don’t know why God didn’t make me a year older; I don’t know why all of my friends are older than I; I don’t know why I constantly feel as if I am in a “waiting period “of life; I don’t know why I can’t just drive yet; I don’t know why I can’t just be on staff at camp already.

I don’t understand any of the above, I don’t know the answers.  I’ve already said that a lot (“I don’t know”) haven’t I? Sometimes I feel like I go through life using that phrase over and over again. 

I.Don’t.Know.

But you know what? I’m learning to be okay with that. I am a planer; I like to know when things are happening and how they are happening. I don’t like not knowing things, it bothers me. I over analyze things, I think them over and over, trying to go over every scenario and what would be the best way of handling that situation. And when I don’t know things, when I can’t figure out the best way of handling things, it puts me on edge.

There are a lot of things in life that I don’t know about. If I knew everything, why would there be a need to trust God?  I don’t know about all yall, but I often find myself falling into a trap of not trusting God and his timing. It’s hard; I will be the first to admit that. Trusting God means giving him our life, it’s complete surrender. Which to me is sometimes a scary thought, I can be bad with trusting others. Slowly but surely, God is showing me how to trust him more. I’m not sure where you are at in trusting God in your life, but take courage. The same one who created you, loves you beyond measure, and knows exactly what’s best for you and why he put you in this certain stage of life. No matter how hard it may seem at the moment; keep on keeping on, and keep on trusting God.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding" (Proverbs 3:5) 

~KayK 

Homeschooling Pride.

If you know me, or read my blog post, its no secret that I'm home schooled.
Homeschooling, is the basically the best(but I guess I'm slightly biased.) I know its not for everyone, but it certainly has helped me along in life in more ways than I can probably count. I always get a lot of questions when people find out I'm home schooled, so I thought I write about it a little. School takes me about 4-5 hours a day, as opposed to the 7ish that public schools have, I also don't have homework, (Haha, I know what you're thinking, all of my school is "homework" :) so I only spend about half my day on school. The other part of my day is spread out through doing things, generally spending time with siblings is on the list. (Yes, I love hanging out with my siblings) I normally have some sort of craft or something I'm working on to do, (Currently, I'm making a Bull Whip out of para cord.) I like spending time outside after school, knife throwing is a fun time passer. I obviously ride horses, but that only happens once a week or so.
Being home-schooled also allows me to spend time with my family, I am with my mom and sisters almost all day and wouldn't want it any other way.
Yes, I do have friends.
Yes, I do school in my pajamas.
Yes, I eat snacks while I do Algebra.
No, I don't live under a rock.
No, being home-schooled doesn't make me super smart, or super dumb, for that matter.
My Mom taught us a lot with real life experiences, we've gone grocery shopping and running errands with her for as long as I can remember, she was always able to find valuable life lessons no matter where we went or what we did. We never did have a great schedule, it wasn't all "get up at this time and get this and this done then do this and that." but rather, "We can go play at the park if you get your school done" Which, by the way was awesome. I can't imagine my life any other way, nor would I want my life to change in anyway. My mom has invested a lot into all of us kids, loving us and teaching us all she can about not only Math and reading, but God and life.
So, there's a peak into my life, though crazy at times and boring others, I couldn't be more thankful.
~KayK